Psalm 124 – RE-worded and applied specifically to me

If the LORD had not been on my side – [watching over me from my mother’s womb; all of my life]

Let everything within me say, if the LORD had not been on my side – [giving me grace and mercy to endure my childhood]

When people hurt me – [when so many people hurt me and those I loved]

They would have swallowed me alive – [they would have won through the pain I endured]

The flood would have engulfed me – [my many years of abuse, neglect and abandonment would have led me to drown in sorrow and anger]

The torrent would have swept over me – [I would have never been able to hear GOD]

The raging waters would have swept me away – [the rage and unforgiveness would have kept me from any trust in GOD]

Praise be to the LORD Who has not let me be torn by their teeth – [Thank You LORD for not letting them be the death of me]

I have escaped like a bird out of the fowler’s snare – [I become more and more free from the enemy’s lies and schemes]

My help is in the Name of the LORD, the maker of heaven and earth – [The LORD’s Name comforts me and gives me sweet peace because He knows all of my ways and loves me still]

— May His joy and my joy in Him be my strength —


Nehemiah, the walls and the end of the line..

During the time of the prophet Nehemiah the walls of the city were rebuilt. I found it interesting that the people were told to spend 7 days in celebration and festivities and THEN on the 8th day they humbled themselves and confessed their sins. The thought that by them celebrating first they weren’t as susceptible to grieving too deeply came to me. When you feel rotten and guilty it’s hard to come out of that sometimes to be joyful. But by being joyful first, the confession of your sins doesn’t overwhelm you and you don’t end up depressed. There is less of a chance of getting trapped by the enemy and his desire to steal, kill and destroy a Christian’s soul.

He will use anything and everything possible. He uses scriptures to bring false guilt. He gets you to think you’re a “good” person so you never see yourself as fallen and seek God. He rolls out as many distractions, pleasures and worries in life to keep you too busy to see what is real and what isn’t. He tells you it’s your right to get whatever feels good [as long as it doesn’t “hurt” anyone, even though the truth is any time we are self-seeking someone ends up being hurt] or whatever looks good and desirable in your mind. He leads you to believe that being intelligent makes you a greater person than you might have been otherwise. He divides people by emphasizing their differences and tempts us to judge them out of pride. He is sneaky, deceitful, extremely “smart” and knows every human weakness there is and which ones each person is the weakest about.

However, there is hope. Because God is Truth and when we submit to Him in truth, the enemy will run away. He can no longer be in God’s presence because he was cast out of heaven. That’s why he uses everything [of] this world to keep us from the Truth and separated from God. He knows that his time is running out and the closer the end gets, the more desperate and angry he becomes. Yes, this world will not last. Our DNA is degenerating, we’re destroying the things we need and man becomes more and more wicked as time goes on. Natural disasters are almost common place now. Yet, people will continue to be led down the wide road because they don’t want to believe there is anything inherently “wrong” about them. So, my brothers and sisters in Christ let us be diligent in praying for our loved ones. Let us work toward reaching the finish line of our lives. The bride and the Spirit wait with joyful expectation for the return of Jesus. To the end of suffering, sadness and evil. When God will wipe every tear from our eyes and we will live in perfect harmony, peace and joy forever with our God. Amen.